Some of you may know this, some of you may not. My Granddaddy, Dewayne Bearden, was recently diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer. When I say recently, I mean recently. This has all happened so quickly that it doesn't really seem real. And yet it is. A hematologist appointment for anemia resulted in a CT scan, followed by a PET scan, and a biopsy. Crazy, I know.
My Granddaddy just turned 86 and because of his age and health history, the surgeon did not recommend surgery as an option, so he will begin Chemotherapy next week. His doctor is very hopeful and optimistic that he can be cured. I hope so too! This man is one of my most favorite people in the entire world. You couldn't find a better Granddaddy if you tried! Annah and I are his only Grandchildren; Andrew his only Great-Grandchild. (Some might say they spoiled us. Those "some" would be right.) Sometimes I think back on all the crazy things they'd let us do and I think to myself, "What in the world were they thinking?!" Just ask Granny what happened to her marble coffee table! (oops) Or take a look under the coffee table in the living room. They let us crawl under there and write/draw all over it. There are many tales of BFF's and Boyfriends under that table. LOL I got my love of baking from my Granddaddy and I'm sure that many of you reading this know exactly what a "Granddaddy cookie" tastes like. There wasn't a church function at Mt. Calvary that didn't see some of those cookies. He even mailed me boxes of my favorites to Auburn! When I was little, he'd let me make "concoctions" in his kitchen; mixing in whatever I could get my hands on. Annah was my taste tester. (Sorry, sis!) Granddaddy has always been the cook in the family. Every Sunday for as long as I can remember, Granddaddy has made a feast for lunch. In high school, half of the youth group would follow us over to his house because they knew the food was delicious and that there would be plenty. Many of my friends from Auburn also came home with me on the weekends to enjoy some of "Granddaddy's Cooking."
Granddaddy also taught me how to fish. I can still remember sitting on his lap out on the pier, learning how to bait a hook. When I was older he taught me how to skin a catfish.
Annah and I spent pretty much every Friday night of our childhood at Granny and Granddaddy's house, as well as every New Year's Eve. We'd spend the night watching Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin' Eve and at the stroke of midnight run out into the yard and throw confetti as we drank ginger ale out of our plastic champagne glasses. And there wasn't a summer vacation that didn't include Granny and Granddaddy!
I say all of that just to give you a glimpse of how important this man is to me. I've been thinking about all these things since I heard the news. Many emotions have been stirred, but for the most part I've had to be strong for Andrew. That is, until tonight...I was in the car all alone headed home from choir practice. I was listening to my CD of our upcoming music and this song came on and I lost it:
I Already Knew
Unexpected tears fall down your face.
You never dreamed life would go this way.
The winds of sorrow blow and you feel so all alone, so out of place.
But God wants you to know that He is there.
And when you call His name in prayer, he says
I already knew what you'd be going through.
And I've been here before you all the time.
I'm no stranger to the pain
For I bore the shame and suffering for you
Your trial didn't take me by surprise
I already knew!
You never know just what a day will bring
What lies ahead remains to be seen
Fear has gripped your mind
You just can't seem to find a song to sing
But God holds your tomorrow in his hands
Though you cannot see his veil, he'll say
I already knew what you'd be going through.
And I've been here before you all the time.
I'm no stranger to the pain
For I bore the shame and suffering for you
Your trial didn't take me by surprise
I already knew!
I'm the future and the past
The beginning and the end
The first and the last, I'll be there tomorrow for I have always been
And
I already knew what you'd be going through.
And I've been here before you all the time.
I'm no stranger to the pain,
For I bore the shame and suffering for you
Your trial didn't take me by surprise.
I see you everyday with loving eyes,
No, your trial didn't take me by surprise,
I already knew!
This cancer didn't take God by surprise. He already knew. He is sovereign and He is Lord. He's the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I know Jehovah-rapha, the Lord who heals, and NOTHING is impossible for Him. If my God wants to heal my Granddaddy, He will! I believe in the power of prayer, so please join me in praying for total healing! Thank you for your prayers.